IT's Women's Day again :))

Lately i'v been handling quite a few teenage rape cases,single unmarried mothers,some dutifully waiting for the guy to one day marry her,some wanting to give the child away for adoption.Each and every one of them have reason's for deciding the fate of their child,it is not for us to judge,because simply we wouldnt know how it feels like to be in their position ,no matter what it's their choice as long as their old enough to take responsibilities for their action.

Belawai beach March 2012

But what still saddens me is the attitude of our community in not wanting to report a rape case,covering it,giving excuses for such action,that simply isnt right,it was not her doing that she was drugged and impregnated,why should she be the one to bear the consequences??? What happens to her school life,her future,the emotional trauma she has to undergo,would she ever lead a good life later.Yes there are still lots of unreported cases worldwide,despite the fact women are becoming more empowered they still face many many obstacles,society,culture, especially in developing and 3rd world countries....

So i'm not going to ask or tell others,i shall make a personal resolution to myself to help as much as i can,to listen to the needs,be more patient and understanding and hopefully do some good if i'm able to.

My boyfriend and soon to be husband sent me a lovely text today,it brought me to tears(my chemo patient's were a bit confused why i was the one tearing,when it's usually them when they get poked)i'm so glad and i'l forever be grateful to GOD for helping me find a guy who not only loves me more then i would ever love myself,who respects me that much more...thank you love....

Love You :))

So to all the fantastic women out there Happy Women's Day - We've come a long way,we've done quite a bit,we've fought,and we're still fighting,and we shall continue to do so:)

2012

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!

Pangkor - Countdown 2012

Cheers to a new year filled with love,joy,hope and new beginnings

To new beginnings.....And 7 months later.....

Where did 2011 go??the question we ask ourself every year without fail,hardly a blink and it's almost a year,feels like yesterday i was in Mukah celebrating new year and now it's almost ending.This year will definately go down in my history,such an important one,A very dear long lost friend turned out to be the guy of my dreams,the person i'm going to spend my whole life with.Am i scared,am i sure people ask???hell no,i'm not scared,not even a little,i'm honestly looking forward to a new chapter of my life.Sometimes it's really just meant to be.I'm just so lucky i found a guy i thought would not exist,he's terribly sweet,kind and the most important thing is he loves me so much,i know he'l do anything for me,and so would I :)

Career wise,cant believe i'v been in paediatrics for a year,passed my exam,more to come though,still so much to learn,but slowly absorbing,making baby steps improvement in knowledge,i'm so happy,it truly is fullflling seeing the patients you treat walk back home,or the one's who were scared of you in the beginning cling on laugh at the stupid noises and faces we make and give that sweet innocent smile,ahhhh,how could anyone resists,especially the 4year olds ;P

I ran a marathon,haha it's only a quarter,but still it's a start,finished it and even won something in the process:)Will try harder for another run next year,see if i can make it for the half marathon....

I managed to see more places,some just local but it's still places i hadn't been,aiming for more next year,even if it's only in Sarawak.

I'm glad things happened how it was supposed to happen,i know i cant turn back time,and i think i don't really want to as well.Next year is going to be wonderful,new starts,lovely first's,good times and bad times are going to be spent together.I cant wait.....

For now i'm just really looking forward to spend my new year holiday with the one i want to grow old with :)) Merry christmas and a Happy New Year !!!!!

At batang Ai

A Birthday, Enlightenment, and Achievement of Nirvana

As a child, Siddhartha the Buddha, was troubled by some of the same thoughts that children today have. They wonder about birth and death. They wonder why they get sick and why grandfather died. They wonder why their wishes do not come true. Children also wonder about happiness and the beauty in nature.

-Attaining Nirvana-

Because the Buddha knew what was in the hearts of children and human kind, he taught everyone how to live a happy and peaceful life. Buddhism is not learning about strange beliefs from faraway lands. It is about looking at and thinking about our own lives. It shows us how to understand ourselves and how to cope with our daily problems. 

Let me share some of my favourite quotes of his



Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha

It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell.
Buddha

Do not overrate what you have received, nor envy others. He who envies others does not obtain peace of mind.
Buddha

Even death is not to be feared by one who has lived wisely.
Buddha

Hatred does not cease by hatred, but only by love; this is the eternal rule.
Buddha


Health is the greatest gift, contentment the greatest wealth, faithfulness the best relationship.
Buddha

'Stupa"Candi Borubudur,Jogjakarta

Went to the buddist temple for the first time in Sibu,the Tua Pek Kong temple ,by the rejang river.Gave offerings,prayed and left.Starting to find peace with myself lately,there's a certain happy,smiley feeling lurking around these days,and i'm not complaining at all,just one day at a time:)

Sarawak Elections 2011

I guess i should blog about it since :

1) i'm experiencing it first hand by being here  all the poster's,'ceramah',campaining,sudden interest in the  people ( It works out for them since most of us have a short memory )
2) It's almost as big as the national elections
3) There's of course so much hype about it
4) Although i'm not registered to vote here indirectly somehow we're all involved in it (it might be a safe thing that i'm oncall on the 16th)

So yeah amidst all this i think the one thing which i will remember about this election is not the ridiculous poster's which make them look like lost models,nor the 'gathering's',or people building a bridge out of no where(regret not taking the picture)..........

But the poor pilot who died yesterday in a helicopter crash,amidst ferrying politicians,i heard and read the story,i saw the poor guy,i saw all the politicians and reporters and the hype in the hospital.It was a very sudden,freak accident i guess,but yeah he's young and leave's behind quite a few loved one's.It's quite a scary thought that most of us here actually take the very same helicopter's on MEDEVAC's,FDS(Flying doctor's Service)  for various reasons.So i would like to post this as a tribute to the Captain although i never knew him personally,may he rest in peace and may his family,wife and children remain strong throughout.

http://www.theborneopost.com/?p=118438

A moment of silence.................

Happy Women's Day !!!!

Before the day comes to an end best to commemorate this day,something which i truly believe in,not being a feminist but just believing in women knowing and holding on to their rights in today's world.Loved this paragraph i read in the paper's by Ivy Josiah ( Women's Aid Organisation Executive Director )

'When I am asked how my social consciousness was awakened, I tell them that it was a nun, Sister Anne, who was my teacher, who encouraged me to ask questions. That was how I first came to believe that a woman’s life should be about choices and not just accepting anything given to, or thrown at, her.'
So once again my prayers to all the strong,independent,courages,gorgeous women out there especially the single mothers,may they stay positive and be blessed forever

May we strive towards millenium development goal number 3 promoting gender equality and empowering women :)

And Just Like That It's over

Went for 1 but fought 2 battles instead,i did my very best for both however i can.so we'll just wait for the results, i guess it would be a lie to say if it wasn't a little awkward or sad.But it's in a different way now.The past should just be left where it should be.I found a very interesting inspiration/idea amidst studying,will try to work on that and hopefully it would be inspiring to other's as well

"Here's to making good memories , not good choices "

Home :)

Home is where the heart is and a house is where we live ( Go figure)

My mother the artist doing what she loves

This is me with nothing much inspiring to write about, and just bored  in the midst of preparing for exams,can't wait for it to finish though.Can't say i didn't enjoy the week,in fact just the opposite,probably enjoyed it a little too much,hmmm

Empowering women

Ladies, let’s make a difference!

I FELT truly empowered reading about Zainah Anwar in A sister steps out (StarMag, March 30) and I really look forward to reading her column (Sharing the nation, in the Sunday Star) in the future.
Although I am not an activist, I do know about gender equality issues but I have always thought that what I have to say will not make a difference.

My sister once told me, “Don’t just think your thoughts, write them down... just because 10 people don’t share the same ideas, that doesn’t mean 100 others don’t either”.

From recent experiences, I have come to understand the plight of women who live with invisible strings attached, holding them back from voicing opinions and making themselves heard. I am truly irked at some people who feel women should not question but just listen.

I feel the people who can make a difference in changing how society treats women are mothers.
If mothers can teach their children – be they boys or girls – from young to respect others equally, that would shape their attitudes when they grow up.
Stop blindly following “culture”. Don’t tell your daughters they can’t be successful just because they are female. Instead, encourage them to strive to reach their full potential.

gTo the women out there, this is my advice: do not simply conform to traditional rules of society and culture. You have the ability to think logically, to question, and know right from wrong. So, exercise that ability!
Of course, we may have some limitations – be they physical or emotional – but that should not stop us from being successful, from fighting for what we believe in, and from not letting people take advantage of us.
It’s hard, yes. But, it’s not impossible.
Dr Sangeetha Siniah, Subang Jaya, Selangor

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/4/6/lifefocus/20845642&sec=lifefocus&cid=0&ei=o2_4R-esEY30yAS5m4DVDw&usg=AFrqEzeLp4F_7VjNk0AB2XIeWRQd_JYZH 


It's been 2 years since i last wrote this , i still feel the same way about it.Felt like sharing :)

In Pursuit Of Happiness :)

Hello 2011 , It's been a first great day of the year.Was reminded of things i should be proud off.And i started the day travelling,although it was an escort patient from Mukah to Sibu.I must say the roads are so much better then 2years back and heard by next year it will be completed.


I smell something politically fishy behind all that,but then again what would i know,i'm after all "just a small tiny government servant" cough,cough.Guess at least the people here would benefit.At least maybe more children can go to school.Something about the Millenium Develepment Goals,hmmm.

Anyway much to my surprise i had a great time in Mukah,the people are so friendly,patients will be patients but they are so gratefull for whatever little we do,makes me very humbled.Will not forget the amount of fish i had,the yummy grilled meat,good company,good singing:P and the wonderful seaside view.Something my friend said  Being a district doctor is truly being a people's doctor,not just treating the rich,you get satisfaction in doing what you want,because you also see the results(must remember that especially when times are tough)

So cheers to all the district doctors,i shall be joining them quite soon :)

Mukah,awesome view don't you agree??

The End !!!!

Never!!! It's only the beginning:).I know this is where we're suppose to make resolutions we never keep,so i'l make it short and be thankful i lived another year,cause life's way too short

• It was a fantastic year that it ended so fast
• Next year will be even better,more to learn,places to see,more adventure :P
• I'm grateful for the things i have and the people(friends and family) who love me
• Random things happen all the time - never thought i would spend new year's out of sibu and here i am in Mukah :)

Learning to be happy starts from within ,Shall leave this post with a camwhore moment

Cheers - Happy New Year 2011

Arggh Hormones..............

Endorphins keeps u up , while cortisol just slowly kills u

Lets not even go into those that creeps up that certain time every month . Never use to believe in PMS when i was younger,these days even the endorphins aren't good enough to halt/stop it....

I'm not really a contact sports person,never thought running would be one of the best, life changing,simpactful thing that could happen to me,but i'm glad it did.Although it's physically tiring,but just concentrating on your run is somehow so de-stressing,at least for me.When i'm sad,stressed,PMS'ing i run :)

Although i must say aerobics taught by a guy who passionately dances and sing's to Lady Gaga's poker face seems to be helping as well :P

Just one of those days where i'm not really liking and  wish a new day would just come soon.

-One day at a time-

Whirlwind september ....

To summarize it was more work,and a whole lot of crazy travelling.Along the way i'm always learning new things and revamping my life.

They say when you travel not only do you rest but your constantly learning and experiencing new things.Went to jogjakarta,i have to say south east asia is such a beautiful place,no wonder the westerners love coming here,culture's diverse,people are generally caring and generous.

In each trip i always find a lesson in life,in this trip i learnt 2



Firstly(conversation between tour guide and us at the volcano)

Tour guide - "OK guys go ahead first i'm going to shoot the rabbit"

Hence the individual response from each member of the family

Me - "Cool but how come i dont see any rabbit"

Sister(Who is currently doing journalism,international relations-very involved in human rights,indigenous people)

"Wow he's actually going to shoot the rabbit for the family dinner",then she goes on telling me about how people still have to hunt for food,bla,bla,bla

Mummy - "He has a gun ah"

My dad after listening to all our response,bursts out laughing,of course we thought he was being very insensitive,but he says

"Wht he actually was trying to say was he wants to go pee"

*Faint*....haha so embaressing

Talk about generation gap,but mum didnt know either:P

Lucky thing the tour guide didnt actually hear us




2nd lesson in life

We were shopping in some shop when we heard very strong winds outside,you could actually hear the zinc roof's moving around.
i thought it was quite normal,i mean it's quite a common occurance here,but there you could see all of them so terrified,there was a moment of shear panic outside the shop,people running,everyone looking up at the sky.

Thinking back later the reason they're so worried is because it's so prone for natural disasters the last earth quake was in 2006 the volcano is constantly erupting,so obviously they're shit scared.

We take things for granted,even the place we stay in,sigh,life is just too short,we really shouldn't waste it with petty things or worrying about what may happen....

Merdeka Merdeka Merdeka !!!!!

Truly it's a whole different merdeka , last year this day it's was filled with uncertainies,a little saddness,happy times.As our country celebrates it's independence this year guess i should be proud to celebrate mine in my own way as well,honesty goes such a long way,even knowing what u want.How much independence is so important to each individual i can't begin to explain,but it really counts.Of course a little pampering,some amount of caring is important but definately not 24/7,we need to realise what's important and and learn to strive for it.Taking things one day at a time is important,for we never know what the future holds may it be good or bad,we can only have a little hope,faith and be prepared to work really hard for that.

So cheers to our country and it's independence,and to our's as well,will always be malaysian,regardless of my race,colour or religion,may other's start believing in that as well.For now will dream about my pink roses,enjoy the solitude and pray for a better tomorrow and for all the people who are dear to me:)



Happy independence Malaysia....

Hallmark :)

THIS IS DEDICATED TO DADDY , HE PASSED FIRST YEAR LAW AT 59

Culture , Tradition and Life

I'm a firm believer we should never be bound to culture and tradition,we should follow it just so it doesnt die,but why should we not question when we have the right to.We know everything in life changes so why cant our culture and traditions change as well,just because our parents,grandparents or friends say so,that doesnt make it right.I'm not saying everything is wrong,there is no right or wrong thought,it's how we perceive it.

Think it's more important to have our own sets of principles,priorities and stick to it.I know i was born an indian,but i have never had that many indian friends,i'v always believed we should never racialise or judge people based on their race,more on how they speak,thet act/behave,or if they actually think before speaking.I get quite annoyed when people from my own race tell me how i should and should not behave,how to speak,why i have not gotten married,haha the age old thing,it's funny at first but after some time it can get quite annoying.



Sadly i know there is no changing them,and of course it isnt their fault as well,that's how they think but that doesnt mean it's right or i need to follow or accept,i have a mind of my own,i too know right from wrong,my sets of priorities and principles.It may not always be right,but it's also ok to make mistakes in life,that's when we actually learn.When i go to sleep it's my concience that i'm answerable too.

I wish i people would look beyond this race,culture and treat each other like humans.If one day i have kids,even if i adopt,i cant wait to teach them to love/like everyone without judging them by means of religion/race.I can imagine so many people disagreeing with me,but even if 1 out of 1000000 people get this message across or inspires them,it would make a difference,at least we're getting somewhere,anywhere

Romance is lost??

In the fantasy world i dream off romance is never lost,and people should grow old together.Although i think i'm living to ideally or i sometimes think i'm to practical,i love seeing people in love,hearing their stories of them being swept off their feet and getting old together.I'm proud to admit i'm a hopeless romantic,give me a feel good romance novel or even a romantic comedy anyday,it's enough to make me happy.I dont ever want to turn out to be a cold,heartless and passionless person.

People shouldn wait for valentines or that special occasion to show how they feel.Love is not about buying expensive gifts,it's about being there throughout whether your suffering from cancer,you got ur promotion,u had to go for an operation,you fell down,ur sitting for an important exam,you just lost a loved one,or your just not feeling right.It's the thought that counts.People are slowly evolving to take care only of themselves,but i guess it's also a defence mechanism.But there's always two ways to look at things:)

How i see it............

Time heals , things change ,

You know u've grown , when you can wish people happiness although they may have hurt you along the way and advice them not to hurt others in return :)

Life's never easy,it's all about learning and growing,today may not be ur day,but one day it will,

Life's not all about being happy or constantly sad , we need a mixture of both and some surprises along the way to jolt you/keep ur spirits up,

Not all married people are happy,just cause you don't see it , doesnt mean it's all full of glee,

It's important to get married for the right reasons,and not just for the sake of it,

Work in each profession is tough , just because we're in a demanding one or we work real hard , doesnt mean other's don't work as hard or as much , we should stop and reflect,

When people demand things from you there's no point getting angry,either way u'v got to get it done,how well we do it,now tht's secondary,

If u'v tried ur very best and you stilll can't do it,there's no point blaming urself,the most important thing is you tried and gave it your best.

Things of the past especially from childhood will always be around no matter how much you try to hide it,so we've just go to learn,and try to work aound it,whether it works or not,you really cant tell for now,

At the end winning secret battles with yourself is the most rewarding,otherwise,you can do what everyone thinks is so bad,to sit and cry,it may sound dumb,but at least u release ur frustrations even if it's for a short time:)

Happy Father's Day......

If it were'nt for you , i would not have been here ,

You've always been there for me when i'v really needed you most ,

I don't know who to tell thank you too for the sacrifice you have given me and my sister , Not many know and understand , but boy do we owe you,

For without you we would not have made it this far,

I still don't know how you did it with the amount of obstacles you've had to face,

Never once complained either,

I always want to be as strong as you and follow your every footsteps,but i find myself lacking in many ways,

You taught us to live a humble life,and be the best in what we are,

You've always been the best role model we'l ever have,if you can study at 60,so can we,

Although we're all grown up,we dont get to meet much,we'l always be daddy's little girl,and we'l always love you so.

Happy Father's Day Daddy.....

Time to rant............

Some people are lucky , or are they realy

Some are happy,some are sad

Do people really have to suffer alone?

Are some things really so easily forgotten?

Why can we never be happy with what we have?

So what if we rebel , we only live once , and life's too short

When we get happiness why is it always short lived?

There are people sufferring all around, why when we see it we're still selfish and we choose to ignore?

Why cant the past just leave you alone?


I probably know the answers to most of it,but it actually feels better when it's written,we're only human..........